Demure as a ghost.
Quiet.
Shy.
Classy.
Mindful.
Seen but not heard.
Heard but not seen.
Having a spouse die by suicide leaves you living as a ghost.
You died with them but lived to clean up the mess.
You disappear from many people's lives but you still exist.
People pretend they can't see you because you scare them.
Demure as a ghost.
Invisible.
Screaming on the inside. Smiling on the outside.
Very demure. Very mindful.
This is the life of a suicide widow. A woman who was married and then had to hear the words, "I'm so sorry, mam. Your husband killed himself." and within the next 24 hours the mortuary was calling, the church ladies, the relatives, the organ/skin/eye donation banks.
Demure as a ghost is how she handled it.
Quietly.
Mindfully.
Floating through the motions like a ghost.
Handling it all with grace.
She did it all with a broken heart.
Very demure.
Very admirable.
There is a way to tell the story with grace.
And sometimes this means going ghost.
Telling the story not in one book that someone would read in a week and then discard but telling it slowly.....over time...for those that are really listening. For those who can really hear the words behind the words, the truth behind the sentences.
Living with a ghost and staying classy?
Very demure.
Very mindful.
VERY BRAVE.
Not hurting others by telling all of the truth?
Very demure.
Very mindful.
VERY CLASSY.
Living with a broken heart, tattered nervous system, anxiety from trauma, and a story that could be written as a gothic horror novel?
Very demure.
Very mindful.
VERY STRONG.
Demure as a ghost.
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