When you are widowed at a young age you learn to carry.
The grief.
The silence.
The loneliness.
The groceries.
You learn to juggle.
The finances.
The lawn.
The stares.
You learn to fix.
Your own heart.
The leaky faucet.

And if you haven't been widowed young or haven't had the universe rip the rug out from under you and force you to want to die and yet have to choose to live?
Then you may think that what people like me write isn't for you but sad prose and poetry? It's for everyone. It will teach you in ways that a manual or novel or class could never do. It touches a place that exists within all of us. Way deep inside of your mind? No. Your soul.

My book isn't about widowhood or suicide, grief or depression or at least those exact words aren't inside of it even though those things that I experienced are what made the words flow out of me like water.
It's a book about LIFE.
It's about touching the thorns and still seeing the beauty of the bloom.
It's something you will hopefully return to over and over in your life to uplift you, remind you, teach you.

 

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Reviews I have received on my book! 

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"I just read your book. Congratulations, it is beautiful. Thank you for putting pen to paper and publishing it."

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"The reason I am so in love with your book is I know how much it took to create something that bares your heart and soul- I’ve seen and witnessed your journey along the way and you’ve NEVER thrown in the towel, not that you’ve never wanted to I’m sure, but you haven’t! and that takes not only guts- but a connection and devotion to something so much bigger.  I truly cherish your heart spilled words and I smile and get warm fuzzies every time I see it on my coffee table and I just got it today!" 

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"Thanks Nikki Bonkoski for all your hours, your dedication. Your healing power, your words, your prayers, your praise. The sharing of your life and for sharing your pain."

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