Nikki Bonkoski
At first I'm shy, then I'm a podcast.
Hello!
I'M NIKKI
Since 2015, at the age of 35, I have embarked on a profound journey of sharing my heart daily on social media, following the devastating loss of my husband of nine years to suicide. My writings and teachings have resonated with individuals across the globe.
I firmly believe in the transformative power of truth and the significance of radical authenticity. My shattered heart finds expression through my writing. While I have always identified as a writer, the tragedy of losing my husband has turned me into a prose poetry artist and a passionate hugger.
If you happen to see me out in the world, I would be delighted to offer you a warm hug if you need one. Life can be incredibly challenging, and it is my dream to share my words with others so they know they are not alone during their darkest moments. Because, my friend, I have been there too.
I have a deep passion for nature, self-love, spiritual insights, mental wellness, suicide prevention, and striving to live my best life, regardless of the challenges I face. Life hasn’t wronged me; rather, I would be wronging myself if I chose to give up and ignore my calling to express my heart. It is my wish that my words touch you and that you find guidance through my insights.
In November 2022, I faced Sudden Sensorineural Hearing Loss, resulting in unilateral deafness, with profound hearing loss in my right ear. This new challenge brought immense grief and depression during the first year, but it also deepened my understanding of others' hidden disabilities. It taught me that there is so much we cannot perceive about someone at first glance, which leads to a simple yet powerful lesson: always be kind and love everyone, always.
Within you lies a radiant light that can never be contorted, damaged, or broken. I truly believe that we all possess the strength to overcome any trials or tribulations we encounter in life.
Dear one, you are wrapped in warmth and light.
I love words, coffee, and humans. I'm glad you're here!
Throughout the years, I have received thousands of 'Dear Nik' letters,
and I make it a point to respond to each one.
Your stories are safe in my heart.
Please, reach out and I will always reach back in.
I'm a writer based in Minnesota with a background as a former flight attendant and wedding florist. My passions include reading, petting every dog I encounter, exploring bookstores, strolling through cemeteries, placing fresh-cut flowers in my kitchen window, enjoying coffee, and gathering stories. My soul has always experienced life through vibrant colors and words, a gift I’ve cherished since childhood. As an old soul, I often find myself in quiet contemplation, lost in deep thoughts. My mind is constantly crafting new narratives, and I carry a large, empathetic heart. I’m truly grateful that you’re here!
My close friends and family affectionately refer to me as Nik.
Experiencing young widowhood has taught me invaluable lessons about life, loss, love, and death, granting me a unique wisdom that enables me to turn emotions into words.
Love Always, Nik
Beautiful comments I've received on my writing:
"I’ve spent the entire evening reading every one of your posts. I think you’re one of the most amazing women I’ve ever read.... never stalked a page like this. Ever. I’m blown away. Keep making beauty in the world. My goodness you deserve so much goodness."
"There are some people we meet in life that no matter how much we search & try to find words that adequately describe their character, we will never find them because the only place they exist are in the pages of the dictionary that sits on a shelf in heaven where they rightfully belong. One day Nik, I'll open that heavenly dictionary and finally be able to communicate how inspirational you & all you do, truly are."
"Nik, if you've saved one life... Can you IMAGINE!!! In reality though you have may already have saved MULTIPLE lives with your words!!!!!! HOLY COW!!!! Some heros fight for our country, some heros fight bad guys, some heros fight fires, some heros fight to save lives, some heros just love and make others around them feel better, know they aren't alone, and help them fight to hang on. You may not have a dangerous job that you risk your life on everyday, but with that keyboard of yours you are fighting as hard as any other hero and making a difference in people's lives and in some cases saving them. All because you chose to tell the truth. Nik, you are a true hero. World wide!!! Keep up the great work!!"
Get your copy of my book!!
https://www.amazon.com/Ghost-Confetti-Nikki-Bonkoski/dp/B0F7GL3357/ref=sr_1_1